Chorus Im not alright I havent been myself lately Im not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtake take me away to a place I shouldnt have gone I hope Im not here for long Ill see you when Im better Ill see you when Im better
Its gotta get worse to get better it went from no way never to okay whatever slowly but surely and sure is, sure is blurry the things that once were me are no longer every so often God reminds me but Im always there in front to blind me man, I value my pride more than peace of mind my precious pride there was a time when I had control but I let it go I watched the world pass in slow motion my lifes ahead of me I cant catch up stuck in a rut I went to willingly these thoughts are killing me I wish I could control myself but I cant or can I? Man Im gone I hope Im not here for long its just a visit ashamed of who Ive become its not really me, or is it?
Thoughts led to emotion which led to action I hate the fact that it happened The Lord can forgive and forget But Im not able to do it Maybe there is where the problem lies Im unable to forgive myself Plus Im too proud to ask for help Well Im sorry for who Ive become I guess circumstances can leave you numb Plus I refused accountability It seemed like such small things you found in me I called you secluded and alluded to the fact that your concerns were silly Man dont overreact Now lookin back in hindsight Im able to see that you were right Is it too late for me? I know its not Its just up to me to choose to stop