Internal Torment Lyrics

I knew that I was saved But I constantly felt A disconnection; a hollow whole A sinner's life that I embraced Walking on my own path Instead of the Way of God Weakened state of being I fell Into the abyss of sex and porn The cyber net and all its trappings Pictures danced on the screen But the light of God shone through Exposing my hypocrisy Hiding behind "Once saved, always saved." Satisfying my selfish urges Perverse sexual acts I played out Abomination of all that is holy Christ will never forsake me It was I who forsook Him Shame now envelopes me Forgive me oh Lord forgive My conscience is tortured (8x) All the guilt Wears me down Throughout me Self Hatred Will I see God's glory Will I fall Into Hell All the guilt Wears me down Throughout me Self hatred Calling on God's mercy Save this lost Soul I beg Fighting myself I loose Battle within Raging inside my soul Begging to be set fr